I just finished my second day of classes. Grad school is a lot of work. Everyone says it because it's true. In order to maintain funding, students at this university are required to be enrolled in 18 hours of classes every semester. I will graduate with a lot more hours than the catalog says I need. This also means that it's difficult to graduate from this university with just the bare minimum. I'm not interested in the minimum. It's uncomfortable, but growth doesn't come without effort.
I am very grateful that I don't have a job beyond my weekly 10 hours of being a TA. They are having me jump right in to class. I get to assist teaching in a foundations course. I haven't taken the course that allows me to be the instructor of record, but they set up my TA position so that I can team-teach with the professor (to an extent). Even though I have a positive impression of how it will play out, there are plenty of other things to do just trying to keep up with classes.
It was daunting at first, but I finally got all of my classes lined up for this semester. I'm not officially enrolled in all of them, but the only obstacle is completing paperwork. My schedule was largely determined by classes I'll need that are not offered every semester (or sometimes even not even every year). Since I would like to get some deeper teaching experience, I'm taking the class on Pedagogy. Contemporary Art History is going to require a lot of reading and writing. I think taking it now rather than my third year will allow me to examine how critics and historians view and judge art of today, thus helping me strengthen my practice sooner rather than later. I'm taking a Painting seminar on other ways painters engage with the art world as professionals. I am hoping this will help me learn how to build networks, something I'm terrible at right now. Those three classes are only seven of my credit hours.
The other 11 semester hours will be studio classes. I'm putting it all into the regular studio painting class and an independent with one of the other painting profs. The independent will let me get a voice critiquing my work that I wouldn't otherwise hear. I need to get going because my first studio visit is in two weeks.
In my undergrad experience, most studio classes met for 3 hours a day, five days a week. Here we meet much less often, but the onus is on me to make sure I am producing work in quantity and quality to justify signing up for so many hours. I wasn't sure if I would be better off doing all painting or mixing another medium into my hours, but both professors and students recommended breaking it down the way I did.
It's great to have so many other people here who are willing to help. Second and third year MFA students are happy for a chance to assist someone in navigating the problems they've just conquered. Profs really like helping the grads out because they rely on us and also let them consider art on a deeper level than the undergrads generally do.
I still feel anxious about my work and how it will be received. I have to put a 12 minute presentation together to introduce my work, process, and intent to my peers. I hope it goes well. I almost expect them to decide that they were wrong about my work and that I will have to go home. I'm thinking that less as things settle. After introducing my work and seeing others', my nerves should loosen up some.
My wife has just started her PhD. Her professors keep telling her that everyone feels like a fraud at the beginning. I hope I don't keep feeling that way very long. I'm guessing the best way to overcome that is to make more work.